Preaching to myself with this one.
I’m working through a months-long relational conflict related to a tender season in my life, thankfully with many a counsellor on “my side”. It’s emotionally and mentally and physically taxing and I don’t know how much more I can take of it before I abandon reconciliation, forgive anyways, and just cut ties.
The trials of the last few years feel like they have been compounding nonstop. I think that’s why I haven’t been able to share on here as much as I used to. It’s hard to write and reflect on the shit when yer in the shit. I honestly look back to pre-2019 Jordan as a youthful, carefree version of myself I hardly recognize anymore compared to post-2020. Things have become increasingly complex. Granted, some major life changes have happened for me since, but still.
Perhaps I thought a certain ease would return with age.
Perhaps I was wrong.
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As a side note, I’m finding myself more and more drawn to imperfect, hand crafted, human, quirky, outlandish, “ugly”creative these days. Anything to depart from the over-polished, aesthetic, too-perfect, unrealistic push of AI and influencer visuals, please.
